And it I only get to hold hands and kiss her on the cheek and hug its enough cause I still love her, and I hope hope for the future. Anyway thank you for your input it has been helpful. There are things about this girl that I could never live with. Her honesty and loyalty among friends, how she just seems to get me and all my weird antics. I'll leave behind the same words I've been telling myself lately. As I was trying to figure out the truth I discovered from another co worker that she had started dating another girl we worked with.
I try to look at it positively too, I know I would've just stayed in a relationship that wouldn't have worked out and I wouldn't have also gone on a journey of self improvement if she didn't come along. I know that guilt plays a big part in our break up. The lesbian proceeds to destroy the best years of her dating life holding out for someone who isn't even gay. My neighbor has a friend another girl, we'll call her girl B who's lesbian and is attracted to my neighbor. One night she told me she started dating a new girl, her name is Danielle. Its a natural instinct of every young girl to tease with guys and crush their hearts out.
While it might be hard to speak with a complete stranger there seemed to be some sort of attraction with this girl but anyway i'm experiencing that form of uncontrollable attraction that isn't remedied by going to a bar strip club or meeting random girl a b c x. I might never be in a relationship with her, and its ok with me, because i love her anyway, and I know she will always love me too. I just don't know what to do as it feels like I'd be wrong to tell her how I feel now but that if I don't I'd also be taking the chance of never getting another opportunity again to tell her. I feel so empty, for 2 weeks I was able to drop like 11 lbs in record breaking time, feel even better and exercise more consistently then I ever did before. A lot of the time they don't know what they want, it takes a lifetime of bad relationships, a divorce and about two kids later to realize they had it staring at them the whole time.
By this time I was totally in love with this girl. It had gotten to where I was right in front of her. It started to sprinkle a little bit. I was in rough shape until i found vadoospell gmail. No one trains us to shield our hearts from each other. Fast forward 18 years and we find each other on Facebook.
I didn't knew she was a lesbian until she confirmed by text. Who wouldn't want to be a lesbian if they could, right? This is basically the only place I come to talk about this. Here is the Joan Armatrading classic, The Weakness in Me. We've flirted back and forth a bit, and even talked about sleeping together once. It's understandable that when she came out as a lesbian to you, then she didn't share that little secret that she's attracted sexually to men as well - after all you're a part of her social circle, not just some random guy who's opinion about her wouldn't matter. I never even broached the subject with my parents.
I am single and of course straight, I have yet to have found a girl like K, She was so beautiful and smart, she had blonde hair and blue eyes. My situation may be more difficult since we slept together so I always have that niggling doubt of whether things could work. I fell in love with a lesbian , we never met but talking on phone , chatting on facebook , already passed 4 months. And we've seemed to become stronger friends from it. But as they say, it's much easier said then done. As some have said on here, you end up being the person they turn to when they have their own problems, but then when they are in a relationship, you sort of become another friend and see them less. Its been like that for about 4 years, going on 5, the two of us being each others emotional support whenever we needed it.
If the situation came to it, I would take a bullet aimed at her to let her live. The only issue was that I knew about the whole situation whereas her girlfriend didn't know a thing and so she felt guilty for cheating. I am not a woman so I can understand that a woman could fulfill some sort of sexual desire that I, as a man can't do for her. But she's has reservations that I can't fully understand no matter how hard I try because I've never lived what she's been through and never could. Now, I'm engaged to my partner and never plan on being with a man or another woman, for that matter ever again; but should things go sour between us heaven forbid, and I don't predict that happening I couldn't rule out the possibility that I could someday be in a relationship with a man again. We had lunch together and most of the time I would end up staying up late at night just talking to her on the phone for long hours during the night. I was emotionally vulnerable to them.
Alas, it will never happen so I feel it's just best for us to go our ways indefinitely. But the harsh truth can be intimating and make you feel vulnerable. It's basically about a woman who is struggling with her own identity and her life and relationships with people and the world around her. Actually she says stuff like that herself. I told her she needed to say something. She told me she wasn't used to being touched or close with a guy.