This was an entirely novel experience for them all. Passion in man is generally co-existentwith a hankering after the pleasures of the palate. H e looks evevone in the face. All I have done is to try experiments in both on as vast a scale as I could do. I am afraid I exhibited before him that day not the spirit,but the brute,in me. So I made up m y mind to go home, fetch m y wife and children,and then return and settle out there. By a long course of prayerful discipline,I have ceased for over forty years to hate anybody.
I had not the necessary strength. I have not read much literature. One cannot reach truth by untruthfulness. And from that day when I began brahmacharya, our freedom began. At the end of twenty-threedays the ships were permitted to enter the harbour, and orders permitting the passengers to land were passed. For instance,a votary of truth would pray to God to give him death to save him from a life of falsehood.
I did not find it at all necessary to load the boys with quantities of books. All that I do by way of speaking and writing, and all m y ventures in the political field,are directed to this same end. Secret love is besides cowardly. I have gone through deep self-introspection, myself through and through,and examined and analysed every psychological situation. And experience has shown that that is the only correct course. But, as days went by, I saw that I had to throw overboard many other things which I used to consider as mine, and a time came when it became a matter of positive joy to give up those things. For he married for the fourth time when he was over forty.
My overcoat w a s in my luggage, but I did not dare to ask for it lest I should be insulted again, so I sat and shivered. This is an issue, as Chinese novels sometimes refer to the same character by several different names, making it much harder to follow the plot. If there is one such you can add zeroes to the one and the first zero will account for ten and every addition will account for ten times the previous number. This rule has saved much time and worry. H e sent me in with the necessary instructions. And those who have followed out this vow of voluntary poverty to the fullest extent possible-to reach absolute perfection is an impossibility, but the fullest possible for a human being-those who have reached the ideal of that state, testify that when you dispossess yourself of everything you have, you really possess all the treasures of the world. As w e went ahead,the crowd continued to swell, until it became impossible to proceed farther.
Vegetarianism was then a new cult in England,and likewise for me, because,as w e have seen,I had gone there a convinced meateater, and was intellectually converted to vegetarianism later. But I very jealously guarded my character. Severalcenturies m q pass by without the advent of such a one, That by which he is known is his life. The Shui Hu Chuan Shui means water, while Hu is lake and Chuan means story is the first martial arts novel in both China and the world. Even so did I participate in the three acts of war.
In no case,should he or she imitate others sheeplike. In the presentpredicament when we are not able to a4ust ourselves to the new conditions which science has brought about, it is not ea9 to adopt the principles of non-violence, truth and zinderstanding. Before the vow I had been open to being overcome by temptation at any moment. He would not accept av belig which did not appeal to his reason or any igunction which did not commend to his conscience. Let m e take an illustration. It dawnedupon me that fasting could be made as powerful a weapon of indulgence as of restraint.
And now I find myself confronted with this monkey problem. Without changing our life we may go on giving addresses, forming parties and hawk-like seize the game when it comes our way. Looking at society all the world over, there is nothing but duality or plurality. There are old and tried precedents to guide one in such a complexity. It works subtly and invisibly; it is an intense process though it might often seem a weary and long-drawn process, it is the straightest way to liberation, the surest and quickest and no effort can be too great for it.
I had not shared m y thoughts with my wife until then,but only consulted her at the time of taking the vow. The flogging had caused severe sores. The fiercer it becomes, the closer is the communion with God that I experience and the deeper grows m y faith in His abundant grace. Those who looked at m e did so with a certain amount of curiosity. The press declared me to be innocent and condemned the mob. When they are no more and I have found my freedom,I w ill eat meat openly,but until that moment ill abstain from it.
As a citizen not then,and not even now, a reformer leading an agitation against the institution of war, I had to advise and lead men who believed in war but who from cowardice or from base motives, or from anger against the British Government, refrained from enlisting. The travail came on suddenly. They were given to understand that I had made exaggerated statements in India about the whites in Natal and calumniated them. It is quite proper to resist and attack a system, but to resist and attack its author is tantamount to resisting and attacking oneself. So m y responsibility regarding the incident in question became clear to me as daylight. This checked the fury of the mob, as it was difficult for them to deliver blows on m e without harming Mrs. Special tribute is also paid to Shri K.
Although I had furnished the house with care, yet it failed to have any hold on me. This I consider to be a gross form of idolatry. A man is worshipped only to the extent that he is followed not in his weaknesses,but in his strength. In fixing m y fees I do not recall ever having made them conditional on m y winning the case. Who can say, which is the obverse, and which the reverse? The experiences and experiments have sustained m e and given m e great joy.